facebook love leads to breakdown

i did it. i deleted my facebook. well, technically, i deactivated it (meaning i am free to reactivate it whenever i so choose and all my facebook friends will be so happy, i am sure..). i realized that while yes facebook is good for staying in touch and being connected, it does not serve me well. it has interrupted far too many times and has become so much apart of my routine that it was like eating and breathing. last week we didn't have working internet one night and i remember being really upset. on the other hand i was really upset by the fact that it was bothering me to not be able to stay connected to all of you as easily as i could before. all of my roommates felt the same, so i did not feel out of place or whatever. it is so easy to sign on that thing and stay on for hours and not even really realize it, and yet you have no idea how fast these past two days without facebook has gone. just now i was on my bed half writing a paper/half watching various shows/half playing some games on my phone. whatever i guess it makes it third,third,third. i seriously feel like i blinked and three hours went by. i can focus like whoa now and i seriously think this is the genius idea of 2010. i have realized that i don't need to be on facebook to stay connected, necessarily..i have their numbers, they have mine. if these are actual relationships, and since nothing is really connected between facebook friends and people i want to hang out with, i see it as a no-brainer (if you will). not only am i more focused, my spirits are better oddly enough and i no longer feel like i have all these attachments. sometimes so many opportunities and options are presented via the book and it makes me nauseous to think about it. i signed in for the last time sometime yesterday morning and read some statuses and realized how ego-driven this whole thing is sometimes, and i am guilty of it as well, definitley, definitley. but it's hard not to seem that way when you have a page dedicated to yourself. putting yourself out there in the wide world web and "representing" yourself. things seem simpler now though. i assume i will reactivate it at some point, but then again maybe i won't. regardless of what happens i know that when it does happen, i will have a better grip on it and not waste my time or get too into it. plus i'm a college student, i can't handle this shit I NEED TO STUDY. and seriously, readers, deactivate (or delete) your facebook. see what happens. school doesn't seem so impossible now.