YIPPI!WEE YAY YES

i thought i was totally crazy for the past 2 or 3 weeks! alas i am not. note to self: never ever EVER ever ever NEVER ever take monessa birth control, ever AGAIN! IT IS THE WORK OF THE DEVIL AND WILL ONLY MAKE YOU BE SAD AND DEPRESSED! damnit! everything thas aesthetics again! songs can make me happy. i can become quite happy for small reasons. i feel independent again. uhh yeah, cool.
also!------my sister is visiting next month. YIPPI! this is great, i am so excited! hooray. this is just such a joyous blog i just wish i could record myself and say the blog because i think it would be humorous.
i am chewing two pieces of gum at the same time! it's great! more juices.
today is a shins day! it's getting warmer! i'm seem to like many statuses on facebook today!WEEEEE
SHOUT OUT TO MY BROTHER PATRICK SHOUT OUT TO MY BROTHER PATRICK: HI PAT!!
i am glad to know somebody reads this

TA!

sucks

i don't really understand this, nothing seems to make me happy in the last two weeks. and i'm constantly trying to get happy, i mean genuinely happy. i've had this feeling ever since my parents left for guam, i think it just makes me really really uneasy not being able to call my mom whenever i want. still, i hate this feeling and hopefully, and it probably will, go away once they come back on like tuesday or wednesday or whatever. i guess i just hate talking on the phone but my mom is like the one exception usually. sucks a lot.

16.2.10: 13h28

I am to the right of Annie Clark from St. Vincent. Holy crap I don't know what to do but my immediate tendency is to not say anything. Oh my god. One of the things I caught her asking was "So, what's the drumming situation?" to some fine man that she is with. Would I be an annoying fan? Should I leave a note? "Yeah, especially the harmony". . ."There's the intro. . ." Yellowish hat. Grayish peacoat(?). Skinny jeans. Wow, I am stunned and obsessed? "How did that song go? I'm trying to grab hold of it. . ." There was a mention of "bunny rabbits" I love bunny rabbits. god we are so alike. "marching band."
Completely starstruck, as Steve so eloquently defined my reactions as I was trying to read something that I wouldn't get to tonight because of her show and then she decides to sit down. It's only 10 pages and I could hardly absorb any of it. Priest on a train, in his sleep. . .trying to fondle some lady? Whoa I really have no idea.
The lady sitting at the table that Annie and two of her men friends were sitting at. . .is sitting in Annie's chair. Does she realize the significance in this?!!!! Okay, it's a chair. I will chill out. NAY I won't. I feel like I should tell her though, she must be an Annie fan. . .or maybe I am stereotyping much too quick.
Steve was so wrong. I told the girl that she was sitting in Annie's chair. I was right, she is a huge fan, but unfortunately can't go to the show. She was so so so glad I told her though.
The funny thing is, is that I went to the java house with the thought in my mind. . ."Oh, maybe Annie Clark will be there. If I catch her out and about, it must be there." SURE ENOUGH MY PREDICTION WAS RIGHT. I have real intuition. word holmes.

this day is a day of great importance, sort of

i got absolutely no sleep today and yet i had a fantastic, wonderful wonderful day. first off, i did not sleep for a few reasons
a. did my first oral exam for french this morning, i'm so glad i did it the first day i was able to and did very well!
b. french exam this afternoon, which i feel super confident about.
c. got new groceries last night, and i was excited to eat real food instead of boughten downtown food?
D. ST.VINCENT IS TOMORROW HOLY SHIT OMG OMG OMG

all these things equal great success. and now that i got a. b. and c. off my shoulders, i can relax for D. and sleep super well tonight because i obviously did not last night.

good night to you! (whoever you are..)

epic g-store trip

and by that i mean, grocery store. i have never ever worn a g-string, wouldn't that be weird if i did? yes, yes it would. i just had a discussion with some people about that this week, jaja.
ANYWAY. i need to not eat out anymore. really the only reason was because i knew that there was better food to buy downtown than i had at home and that was only because i never had any food at home. i was too lazy in my grocery shopping, sadly. but not anymore, no no no. i was at the g-store for almost an hour and a half just browsing and figuring out things i needed. i mean that sounds like an enormous about of time, but really it went by rather quickly. i got all the food groups! mom will be so proud of me.
lately i've been really good at school, it rules. never before have i studied so much, and it's becoming a routine which i liiiike. you see because before, studying as much as i should have wasn't inbedded in my routine..
had a dream with annie clark in it last night. she was just in it, we didn't talk. but i am so excited to see her on tuesday, i can't believe it's almost here! i can hardly sleep! but it's all for annie, all for annie.
saw a good good good friend yesterday that i haven't, unfortunately, really connected or communicated with since the end of summer. feels really really good.
parents are in guam, i am jealous. miss them and all but i'm just happy my mom is there, she loves and misses it so much. her face really lights up whenever she talks about the tiny pacific island. it's cute.
as of now, i want to study abroad in france again. and i love my french teacher in more ways than one?

facebook love leads to breakdown

i did it. i deleted my facebook. well, technically, i deactivated it (meaning i am free to reactivate it whenever i so choose and all my facebook friends will be so happy, i am sure..). i realized that while yes facebook is good for staying in touch and being connected, it does not serve me well. it has interrupted far too many times and has become so much apart of my routine that it was like eating and breathing. last week we didn't have working internet one night and i remember being really upset. on the other hand i was really upset by the fact that it was bothering me to not be able to stay connected to all of you as easily as i could before. all of my roommates felt the same, so i did not feel out of place or whatever. it is so easy to sign on that thing and stay on for hours and not even really realize it, and yet you have no idea how fast these past two days without facebook has gone. just now i was on my bed half writing a paper/half watching various shows/half playing some games on my phone. whatever i guess it makes it third,third,third. i seriously feel like i blinked and three hours went by. i can focus like whoa now and i seriously think this is the genius idea of 2010. i have realized that i don't need to be on facebook to stay connected, necessarily..i have their numbers, they have mine. if these are actual relationships, and since nothing is really connected between facebook friends and people i want to hang out with, i see it as a no-brainer (if you will). not only am i more focused, my spirits are better oddly enough and i no longer feel like i have all these attachments. sometimes so many opportunities and options are presented via the book and it makes me nauseous to think about it. i signed in for the last time sometime yesterday morning and read some statuses and realized how ego-driven this whole thing is sometimes, and i am guilty of it as well, definitley, definitley. but it's hard not to seem that way when you have a page dedicated to yourself. putting yourself out there in the wide world web and "representing" yourself. things seem simpler now though. i assume i will reactivate it at some point, but then again maybe i won't. regardless of what happens i know that when it does happen, i will have a better grip on it and not waste my time or get too into it. plus i'm a college student, i can't handle this shit I NEED TO STUDY. and seriously, readers, deactivate (or delete) your facebook. see what happens. school doesn't seem so impossible now.

ding a ling ching wing

school is about to commence and today i have accomplished something that i can check off my to-do list for as long as i am living in iowa city. i worked out at iowa city fitness and was in the room that has the window viewing. it's not as cool once you're actually up there. anyways, glad i got that one out of the way.
all i want to do is get a pitcher and drink at the mill right now. not alone, of course.
i had a badbadbad experience with a certain substance this past month and it has taken a toll on me and has become a bit ridiculous. chill out cristin. you aren't going to die. settle down. okay, that was me settling myself down. you will live. stop being anxious.
okay
it feels good to type this stuff out though. it was really really horrible. but i don't have to freak out about it when i'm not even doing it, dang. ridiculous.
i wanted sushi today but got a veggie burger instead. sushi kicchen was closed (whatever). veggie burger was good but 3 dollars more expensive. worth it? no but it was good.
i was watching/listening to my roomies play call of duty today. i could hear other random people's voices playing in other parts of this country/world and there was this guy that was freaking out and he kept saying "oh my goooooood." it was weird and slightly annoying.
i wonder if it's possible for feet to break.
done.