sucks

i don't really understand this, nothing seems to make me happy in the last two weeks. and i'm constantly trying to get happy, i mean genuinely happy. i've had this feeling ever since my parents left for guam, i think it just makes me really really uneasy not being able to call my mom whenever i want. still, i hate this feeling and hopefully, and it probably will, go away once they come back on like tuesday or wednesday or whatever. i guess i just hate talking on the phone but my mom is like the one exception usually. sucks a lot.